Four More Days Until Freedom

People keep asking me what my plans are after leaving my position with the school system. I keep generically saying "Nothing, I am not doing a thing." No one believes me. And they are right. I will take a few days to sleep in, another few days daydreaming about all the things I could be doing. I may go out to lunch with a few friends to catch up. But then, I will get the itch to help an organization or get involved in a cause. I know myself just as well as others know me.

Yeah, I think I am having some mid-life crisis thingy. I have spent so much time in this ambitious frenzy that I have forgotten who I am and what makes me happy. I know I want to use my life to make a difference in the lives who are lost souls. Sometimes I feel like I am pushing and pulling to make a difference. At some point I think it should just happen. I have so much creative energy just waiting for a purpose.

I need to be listening to that inner voice that tells you which path to follow. What is it I am meant for, where do I belong, how should I use my voice. Should I take some time and stay dormant, or should I bellow out to the universe my concerns, predictions, stresses? Where do I go from here?

For the next four days I will coast...live my days as the person I am now. Saturday starts a new chapter in my life. It will remain to be seen what I do with my time and my voice until then. Spring is coming but I may hibernate.